Take a Bite of My Heart

Busted up marionette

Speechless and drained out. That’s how I’m feeling towards my relationship with love. He need to stop agonizing himself. I’ve tried, yet I failed again and again but I’m going to keep trying.

He typed words out of anger and confusion to break my heart into two. Skeptical, he regretted jumping the bandwagon with me. For once I did not believe him. He was right there infront of me at Art park, crying tears of joy, happiness and thanking god that I came into his life. And now he’s regretting it all? Hmph.

This is far from over. Not untill he look me in the eye, no doubts, no insecurities.

Okay maybe you’re over it, maybe it doesn’t mean anything to you anymore, maybe it never did, but it meant a lot to me, you meant a lot to me, you still do.

- Marissa Cooper (The O.C.)

China’s feeling lovesick

All that what’s left of my past is now blurry and fuzzy. I can’t believe I went through 2 1/2 years of depression. Look what it put me through. I fucked school twice, my mind surpass an average 16 year old thinking yet I stayed true to my nature and I came out as a better person, a better Kennedy, a better me. Much to everyone surprise. Mmm. :)

I know I can do so much better then this, I could be so much better then this. I shouldn’t let little details like being late for class distract me from dancing. You know what they say - Dance first, think later. Yeah, And I shouldn’t always let my emotions overpower my movements. Halfway through the choreography I could get teary-eyed and the feeling is kinda overwhelming. I just need to get it inside of my head before class starts and push myself.

Welcome to the world of insecurities and paralyzing self-doubts.

Source: doe-in-the-headlights

ilovetheoc:



When the American teen drama The OC launched in 2003, Rachel was admittedly overshadowed by the blonde explosion of Mischa Barton’s overnight success. It took a fraction longer to notice the adorable brunette’s easy charisma as Summer Roberts, but her appeal has never waned and now, three years after the show closed, the five-foot two-inch actress is definitely the girl holding all the cards. “I do miss Summer terribly,” she says. “The OC was the most phenomenal time. I saw Mischa at Cannes, but I honestly miss everyone from the show.” 

Rachel Bilson covers September’s InStyle UK (1, 2, 3).

ilovetheoc:

When the American teen drama The OC launched in 2003, Rachel was admittedly overshadowed by the blonde explosion of Mischa Barton’s overnight success. It took a fraction longer to notice the adorable brunette’s easy charisma as Summer Roberts, but her appeal has never waned and now, three years after the show closed, the five-foot two-inch actress is definitely the girl holding all the cards. “I do miss Summer terribly,” she says. “The OC was the most phenomenal time. I saw Mischa at Cannes, but I honestly miss everyone from the show.”

Rachel Bilson covers September’s InStyle UK (1, 2, 3).

Hello sunshine

I told you we’d pull through. We haven’t really talk yet but he did IM and text me about how he felt about us. That really didn’t count though. If we talk face to face then I’ll consider. Hmm, it’s like you keep punching a tree, it wouldn’t budge cause its uprooted to the ground unless you destroy the tree with a bulldozer then it’ll fall apart. Same goes for me. I will not let our relationship end just like that, no matter how busy or tired he is. I’ll make time for us, support him and have his back. Plus I doubt he’s the type of guy that will use my weakness to his advantage.

It’s been a tough 6 days for both of us. All the insecurities, crying at midnight, thinking what’s going to happen next but we’re going to stay strong. Just keep pushing and be optimistic of whatever is coming ahead of us. 

randomnessnstuff:


by ~livingcatharsys 
Good morning, cutie.

randomnessnstuff:

by ~livingcatharsys

Good morning, cutie.

About

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KENNEDY,
Seventeen.

Free-spirited, outspoken and quirky. Loves being ridiculously random at times and talks while stuffing food into his mouth. Never lived without a day of texting and IM'ing. His passion and androgynous style for dance never fails to amuse anyone. Coffee, juice or water keeps him going 24/7. A music aficionado for years. He likes alternative and indie rock bands. Listening to them turns him on all the time. Literally.

I dig grass:
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